The real shit

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Well, folks, grab your popcorn because I'm about to tell you the side-splitting tale of how my relationship came to a screeching halt. Spoiler alert: It involves a lot of unspoken words, zero emotional support, and a level of nonchalance that deserves an award.

Picture this: I invite my boyfriend outside to enjoy a little bon fire - sip on a few drinks, cuddle.. you know.. normal shit and I, in a moment of sheer desperation, find myself on my knees. Yes, you read that right. On. My. Knees. Begging my significant other to tell me he loves me and wants us to work. You'd think I was auditioning for an overly dramatic soap opera, but no, this was my reality.

So there I am, pouring my heart out, tears streaming down my face, and my dignity somewhere in the basement. And what does he do? He IGNORES me. I mean, I've seen potted plants show more emotional depth. His level of indifference was so impressive that I half-expected him to pull out a book and start reading while I was in mid-beg.

Fast forward to a day later, and guess what? Still nothing. Radio silence. Not even a hint of a fight. He's just totally fine, living his best life, probably thinking about what to have for dinner while I sit here questioning the meaning of life and love.

Now, let me break it down for you: Communication is supposed to be the foundation of any relationship, right? Wrong. In our case, it was more like the missing puzzle piece that we never found. Unspoken words became the norm, and my requests for emotional support were met with the enthusiasm of a sloth on a lazy Sunday.

I've learned that a healthy relationship requires effort from both partners. It's about showing up for each other, especially during tough times. But when one person is unwilling to invest in the relationship, it becomes imbalanced and unsustainable. It's like trying to row a boat with one oar—you just end up going in circles.

Recognizing your own worth and setting healthy boundaries is crucial. It's important to know when to walk away from a relationship that no longer serves you. Staying in a relationship where you feel undervalued can take a toll on your self-esteem and overall well-being. And believe me, my self-esteem took a nosedive faster than you can say "emotional rollercoaster."

Reflecting on the unspoken words and unmet needs in our relationship has been eye-opening. It made me realize how crucial it is to address issues as they arise and to communicate openly about our feelings. But who are we kidding? Applying these profound lessons in real life is like expecting a cat to fetch—highly unlikely.

So here I am, writing this blog, trying to find humor in the absurdity of it all. While this breakup is painful, it's also a step toward valuing myself and seeking a relationship where both partners are equally committed. I've learned that it's better to be alone than to be with someone who doesn't value or fight for the relationship. This whole experience has taught me the importance of self-respect and the necessity of mutual effort in a partnership.

But let's be real, folks. The next time I see him, I might just ask if he enjoyed his book while I was in mid-beg. Because if I can't laugh about it, I'll probably just cry again. And who has time for that?

But actually, to make it worst. 

We live together. 

Now, if only I could actually apply all these profound lessons in real life. But hey, we can all dream, right?